Friday, April 6, 2012
This is sort of on the theme of my previous posts but not really = and why exactly does it take water - a sharp object and alcohol for me to figure this shit out - okay I was taking a bath and shaving things but hello? TON o BRICKS moment. I was remembering an earlier in the day conversation from someone who was telling me about this "lady" from town that bragged constantly about her running time etc . . she wanted to get in the paper everytime she ran . . . . she was bragging about her 10 mile time and it was ( ironically 10 minutes slower than my time the day before) and I suddenly got all offended. not as a runner but for some reason as a knitter and I was like HUH? what the hell does this have to do with knitting? And then it hit me. She was hitting a part of who I am but not the real "WHO I AM." Of course I love Jesus and HE is LORD. Understood. BUT the me who is uniquely KATIE is a KNITTER who also RUNS. I am so OCD I can't NOT workout. I've done ellipical machines cuz I can knit on them. Bikes cuz I can knit on them. But running was just me and road and a goal. Marathon. CHECK. much like that really complicated cabled sweater pattern. check. I run because I can. and it serves that purpose. I'm 42 and can wear clothes I've worn forever. 3 kids not a factor. I run because it's a great burn and I like being sweaty when it's already 100 degrees and humid. I run because I enjoy the feeling of my heartbeat in my ears and music that I hear only from memory.
But I knit because I crave it. I crave my hands and head and heart meeting as one and doing what I say. I knit because it's who I am. I am a runner. But I am a knitter who runs. there is a difference. And if you are a knitter who also does something else - you know what I mean. OR if you are a "fill in the blank" who runs you also understand. There is passion and there is passion lite. It just is. Well gotta fly - doing a half marathon in the morning and then got a date with Home Depot - yeah. My weekend.